Today I got my membership details through from WAY, an organisation for people under the age of 50 who have been widowed. I ended up chatting with Sharon, the local organiser. SHe lost her husband to a heart attack whilst he was on holiday too.
I feel as if a weight has been lifted. It was so good to talk things through with someone who knew exactly how I felt, understood everything I am going through. My lack of support from people who promised it hasn't changed, but I know now that it is what usually happens.
ANyway, I am off to bed now, try and get some sleep.
Thanks for reading.