Monday, September 08, 2008

Big day today

Today my youngest daughter, Alex, started school. It seems like it was only yesterday that Sophie was starting, but already two years have passed. I didn't feel sad that I was losing my baby to school, as she was very ready for it. However, I did feel very sad that Nigel was not there to see her make this big step. Other dads were there, and I am so glad they were able to do that. It is times like this that I become more painfully aware that our family is not how it should be. We are a close-knit family unit, but I never planned to be a lone parent, a widowed parent. I work hard for my girls, am always there for them. I know Nigel would be proud if he could see them now. But it's just not the same, is it?


anita said...

oh my, hasn't she grown??!!
i'm sure Nigel will have been there in his own way.
You're doing wonderfully on your own, he would be proud of that too!

Gin said...

I'm sure he would be very proud of you all. You should be proud of yourself too.

triciaquarius said...

Hi Anna! Just popping in after you visited my blog - thank you. You must be so proud of your girls and yourself. I have been in the same position as yourself but 10 years older, and know exactly how you are feeling. Your good friends will help you through, live life for your beautiful girls and most of all, take care of yourself. Treasure those memories and time will heal the pain, believe me. Take care.
Hugs Tricia x

Lynne W said...

Anna I know just how you feel. Adam's dad died 3 weeks before Adam started school so he got to buy all the school uniform, and the related excitement but he wasn't there on The Day. I'm lucky, I found someone else, but you're right, its not the same. Hugs for you all